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Finding your passion

Hello dear readers,

I know I haven’t written an article in a long time but I wanted to start being active and consistent again with my writing. I’m hoping I can right at least 1 article every few days or even try everyday.

In this little article I wanted to talk about ‘finding your passion.’ To everyone who has a hard time discovering what their passion is or what they want to do with their life, this is for you. I want you to know that it’s okay to feel lost and not have a specific plan to follow. It’s normal. But sadly, sometimes society puts pressure on us and tells us that if we don’t know what we want to do with our lives then we’re useless and we won’t succeed. Willingly, I am here to tell you that you are not useless and that we all have our own strengths so just because you aren’t good at one thing that doesn’t mean you aren’t important and any less than the people who are good at whatever they do.

I honestly think some of us just need time to find what really makes us the happiest. And if you’re like me and don’t have ONE interest but have multiple then I suggest for you to do all of it and become better in whatever hobby you’re interested in. Also, why not combine them? It might turn out really incredible and unique. So, I hope all of you find whatever it is that makes you feel the most alive and happy. Find inspiration and do your research. We’re so lucky we live in a world where it’s easy to find anything (thanks Google) so take advantage of it! Good luck and don’t give up!

To My First Love

We all have that one person we’re never gonna lose feelings for. No matter how long it’s been, no matter how many people tried to replace them, they will always have a special place in your heart. Mine is my first love. Sadly, we were never together and I don’t think he ever loved me back the way I loved him.

It sounds really cheesy and the typical ‘first love’ story but I honestly want to say everything that’s been going on in my head for the past few days. I haven’t really spoken to anyone about it because I feel embarrassed that it’s been years and I still think about him. I think about what we could have been if I didn’t make such stupid mistakes. I think about what we could have been if I never left. And it hurts me…so damn much. It is what it is now and I can’t change anything. But, if you ever see this one day I just wanted you to know…

I would have taken care of you. We could have been great together and I would have given everything I could to you. Seeing you recently still amazes me how charming and sensational you are. You deserve everything. You’re smart, funny, and honestly just breathtaking. I wanted it to be you so badly and I wanted it to be us. I know you will never feel the same way and one day you’ll leave this small city and find greater things and greater people. I wish you the very best and I just wanted to thank you.

Thank you for existing and being you. I don’t know if it was the thought of being with you or the thought that you would magically say you cared about me too. But, whatever it was, it was there. My feelings never changed and I will always admire you. I hope one day I can move on and find someone to love wholeheartedly the way I loved you. I know you’ll do great things because that’s what great human beings do.

🙂

Things That Inspire Me

Hello, lovely human being reading this. I hope you are having a happy day full of productivity and positive vibes. I want to share some things that inspire me.

  • My sisters and how they’re the most important people in my life
  • My dad and his intelligence, sensitivity, humor, and awesomeness
  • My mom and her creativity, talents, her amazing heart, and cuteness
  • MUSIC.
  • food, food, food.
  • loyal friends
  • funny friends
  • crazy friends
  • great weather
  • cats and dogs and bunnies
  • oceans and how happy I feel when my feet are in the sand, wind blowing through my hair, and a clear happy mind
  • mountains and how adventurous I feel when I go on hikes, see beautiful trees, and enjoy nature

Always try to find a lesson in every weary situation, always try to find courage in yourself & other people

Overwhelmed

Don’t you just feel overwhelmed with life sometimes? Putting pressure on yourself to become someone great or not knowing what you want to do in the future?

There are days where I would be listening to music feeling contented and all of a sudden I think of how I’m wasting my time and how I can never achieve anything successful. It scares me so much how time passes by so quickly, and I just think to myself ‘Have I done anything worthwhile?’, ‘Have I been doing things to improve on myself and not waste time?’ or ‘Have I been doing things I love?’ And if I can’t answer any one of those questions with a ‘yes’…it honestly brings me to tears because life is too short to feel like you’re not good enough or to think you’re not worth anyone’s time. I wish I can amalgamate everyone who feels the same way I do and help them out by letting them know they’re not alone.

If you are one of those wonderful human beings who are overlooked and under appreciated, this is a message to you saying you are more than enough and you will achieve big things in life. Don’t ever let small minded people tell you that you can’t achieve your goals. It is so easy to get let down and lose inspiration but you gotta fight that negativity and be the best possible you. Be amazing, you can do it.

How Having a Slow Computer Taught Me Patience

Honestly, I wouldn’t recommend suffering with a slow computer…if you can afford to get a new one, DEFINITELY buy one! But with that aside, I want to talk about how having a slow computer taught me patience.

First of all, it’s horrible! Totally depressing! I remember my laptop shutting down by itself four times in 2 hours. I could still remember how angry and stressed I was while experiencing that awful situation. There are days where I can tolerate my turtle speed computer but there are also days where it drives me insane. So I haven’t been able to purchase a new computer yet and I really do need a better, faster, up to date laptop. It still works and I’m very grateful for that. Months ago, I would throw tantrums whenever my computer would lag. I would be so upset to the point where I start thinking of all the things that’s wrong with my life and why everything is so unfair. Of course I still have those days but I’m better in keeping my cool and just being patient. Overall, I think my slow dinosaur computer taught me a lot about how you can’t have anything you want, whenever you want. You have to make do with what you have and BE PATIENT.

Long Distance Friendships

Have you ever met a friend online that lives far away from you? Yes? Me too. I’ve met a couple of people whom I consider a very important part of my life. We share stories, tell jokes, talk about our life struggles, and overall be there for each other. Most of the time it’s great because you find other human beings who have similar interests as you do and different opinions which can give you a different perspective in the ways you see things. But, sometimes the situation where you and your long distance friend is in gets difficult or sorrowful because of how far you two are from each other.

The thought that you can’t go to the movies together or grab ice-cream and pizza is a very melancholy experience. That the most you can do is see each other from one computer screen to the other, hearing each other’s voices only through call, and not being able to physically be there for one another can get very depressing. But, that doesn’t mean friendships end just because of these unfortunate circumstances. In fact it may even strengthen the bond you two have. All I know for certain is… as long as you both think about each other and don’t give up on the friendship then anything can happen. Take advantage of social media and how easy they make it for us to communicate to people significantly further away from us. Stay strong and don’t give up!

The Struggle of Having Motivation to Workout

I used to work out 3-5 times a week with no problem. I would put my workout clothes on, grab my water bottle, and head on out to start working out. These past two months, I’ve been struggling to start a workout and finish it feeling accomplished and ecstatic. Today, my 61 year old dad went out on a 4 hour bike ride and came home overwhelmingly exhausted. Even though he was sore and unable to think straight because he was in excruciating pain from the workout, it inspired me to start working out again. After 2 hours of surfing the net and being unproductive, I managed to get dressed and start on my workout routine. First, I was driven with motivation and was excited to get my heart pumping. After fifteen minutes, I remembered how difficult it was and how much mental strength you need to finish a workout. After 40 minutes of exercising, I decided I would call it a day. The endorphin’s must have kicked in because writing this now, I feel great and motivated to work out tomorrow but let’s see how that works out (no pun intended). But yes, overall I just wanted to write this article to share my feelings and thoughts on how mentally difficult it is to start my workout routine. Stay tuned in to see if I actually continue to become the best possible me I can be!